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well, my grandma died while I was at the beach, was very upsetting. I wanted to be there for her when she passed away. However, she said that she was glad we were there because we were her connection to the coast in her last moments, and the coast was her favorite place in the world. besides Ireland of course. I miss her very much, but I know that she was ready to go, and she wasn't scared. Shes with God now, and her husband, and her dogs.
After she died I began to design her memorial tattoo. Ive had it for a little over two weeks now and I love it. Im getting ready to start my second year of college. I cant believe Its really already been a year since graduation. So many changes!!

peace

i am currently sitting here looking out the window at a beautiful view of the Oregon coast. The beach has always been my escape. I cant help but feel that this is where I am meant to be. The sound of the surf is the most relaxing sound in the world. I hope to one day live near the beach. There is something about the smell of salt in the air that is so welcoming. If it weren't for my family, I honestly wouldn't feel like I had much of a reason to not just stay here. I love the feeling of the sand in between my toes. I don't think I am meant to be a city girl . I'm a small town girl, whose always had to live in the city because shes had no other choice. The only hard part is that this is the first time in fourteen years, that I have gone to the beach without a dog. I feel so at peace here. Free. Alive.

skye

sssschweet

soooooo
I just found out that my girl Krystal, her brother. his wife and their baby girl are all moving back to Portland!!! I am so stoked!!!! I cant wait.
Everything in my life is going exactly how i want it to. Its amazing how much your life can improve when you make just a few changes. I feel so balanced. I don't know where I'm going, but for once I feel secure with the unknown aspects of my life. I'm enjoying each moment with out fretting what will happen in the next. I have the most amazing friends and a really great life.

life as of now

so my life has been pretty much amazing. I am making so many great positive changes in my life. Ive finally decided that it is about time I actually get my license so I'm signing up for driving classes. With my moms help, i'm learning to cook all kinds of food. I am taking school much more seriously as well.
Ive been hanging out with this new guy, and hes pretty special. Hes smart, hardworking, and funny as hell. Unlike most people in their twenties, hes finished school and has a great career. Hes really supportive of all the changes Ive been working on, and he always motivates me to do whats best for me. Oh and hes gorgeous, and then some. We always have a blast. Its nice just get to know a guy, and not jump into tagging on the girlfriend/boyfriend labels. I look forward to seeing where this goes.

On a sad note, my grandmothers health is deteriorating. She is eighty years old and recently had knee replacement surgery, which I believe she is way to old for. While in rehab she got sick and was taken to the ER where they found a blood clot in her lung. A few days later when they went to check to see if it had moved towards her heart, they found a large tumor in her chest. Shes finally out of the hospital and living with my aunt, whos a nurse. But everyday gets harder for her. She cant swallow her pills anymore, so they will be putting her on an IV and give her morphine. Shes not eating much, and becomes weaker everyday. Shes ready to go, and to be with the love of her life in heaven. So she said no chemo, which at her age, i understand. I just pray that when she goes, its peacefully and that she doesn't feel pain.

anyways, all in all life is amazing. And for once I feel stress free.
so hells ya

outchie

well......
so it turns out that my burn is a second degree one. I spent 3 hours in urgent care on Monday night, and I had to go to the doctor today. It is a deep, pussy, red, swollen mess. Turns out I developed a bacterial infection in the skin. I have to keep it wrapped for at least ten days. I have to wash it, apply burn cream and fresh bandages 2 times a day at least. The bandages are gauze pads,with kerlix wrap some tape, and then a knee high with the toes cut off to hold it all up.
I am on vicoden which im taking 2 of every 3 or 4 hours, and anti inflammatory which i have to take 2 times a day, and an antibiotic that i have to take 4 times a day.

It hurts really bad, its hard to walk. My doctor and mother wont let me go to the gym. So im pretty much literally stuck in bed. Luckily Kevans taking me out for my birthday on saturday so ill finally get out of the house. I cant even go to class this week! And let me tell you I am WAY FREAKING EXCITED! He is taking me to the Red Bull Flugtag event on the water front. Then we will probably do something else awesome!!!

ive been broken out of my shell

my entire life i have been told, that i wasn't capable of doing anything. That if i did something I would just get hurt. But the craziest thing has happened to me. I met this guy, who is pretty much the shit, and he totally broke me out of my shell. I actually got on his motorcycle with him, which was so much fun. Of course, i had to get a boo boo right away haha. Burned my leg really bad on the muffler trying to get situated, but it was worth it was totally worth it. My leg looks pretty narley. haha. Hes even going to take me quadding! Hes gonna get me doing all kind of stuff that I never would have done!
Did I mention this guy is freaking gorgeous?!

-skye

life and what notness

The past few weeks, have been the best weeks of my life. I am happy, calm, sucessful, and growing in so many ways. I have never felt in my life like i did when I woke up this morning. Everything is getting better and better. Im getting along wonderfuly with my parents. Im getting things done. Life is much less stressful, and much less complicated now. And I LOVE IT!
Now I see just how amazing this life can be!!

BAHHH!
I just wanna get up and dance and sing!
I have been smiling for 3 weeks strait now!

This is awesome

fitness fun

Growing up, my mom always told me that if I just started to be active, that I could become addicted to it, and I always that it was pure nonsense. Well that just shows how much parents know and how much I don't know. I am SO addicted to the gym. Last week I went Monday-Thursday and Sunday. Normally Its Monday-Friday, a bike ride or something on Saturday, and back to the gym Sunday night when I get back from my dads house. I feel amazing! Some days, I wake up really sore so I take a hot bath or shower and use the heating pad or ice pack. When I go, I just take my music, a good book, and my phone so I can text during the cardio. Having something to distract your brain a little really makes time fly. I figure, if I keep this up, which I know I will, Ill start to see huge differences by Halloween, and then when swimsuit season rolls around again next year, Ill be totally ready and totally hot! I am so proud of my self that I'm no longer that lazy teenager that sat around in the dark watching T.V. Ive always been over weight by about 15-30 pounds, unless of course I was refusing to eat, which has happened. I have on many occasions starved myself to loose weight. But never again. Now I know I can loose weight the healthy way! And not only can I loose weight but I will actually get in shape, and tone up! This is such a HUGE lifestyle change for me, and I'm never going back to the way I used to be! I've already lost around 12 pounds since I started working out a month ago. In February of this year I was a size 5 or 6 and weighed 130 pounds. But, after a bad break up I binged for weeks and found myself a size 11 and 158 pounds. Today I am 147 and a size 8 or 9. My short term goal is to loose 5 pounds at a time. My long term goal is to weigh around 115-125 and be whatever size fits that weight. I want to be fit, happy and healthy. And although I definitely want to loose this weight, I refuse to be so thin that my spine and shoulder blades protrude out of my skin.

This is the work out i did today, most days are pretty much the same

Cardio: bike- 65 minuets (444 calories burned)
eliptical- 5 minuets (60 calories)
Total time/calories burned- 70 minuets / (504)

Some days carido goes to 90 or 100 minuets with over 600 calories burned


Weights- __X__ means amount of sets of reps

Hip adduction- 3 X 10 at 40 lbs
Hip Abduction- 3 X 10 at 40 lbs
abdominal- 100 @ 40 lbs
lat pull- 3 X 10 @ 20 lbs
rowing- 3 X 10 @ 40 lbs
shoulder press - 2 X 5 @ 20 lbs
" " 2 X 10 @ 10 lbs
chest press- 3 X 10 @ 20 lbs
leg extension - 2 X 10 @ 20 lbs
Tricep extension 2 X 10 @ 20 lbs
lateral raise - 2 X 10 @ 20 lbs
Arm curl 2 X 5 @20 lbs
" " 2 x 10 @ 10 lbs
Rotary Torso 2 X 10 @ 30 lbs each side

Time spent at gym - 2:50 pm - 5:30 pm (2 hours and 40 min)

WOPA!! GO ME!!